Utter Sadnness part 2

Again!?!?!?

Yea, I know, this seems like a habit to me.... I go through one week of happiness, followed by one of depression. What happened?

Car: Sucks. It's a horrible POS that I hate. Yea, I know, I should be glad I HAVE a car and I'm out of debt, but I'm not. I was almost happier with my old car... my lovely civic.... she's gone, in my brother's hands, and I'll never have her back....

Family: Parents stopped arguing (YAY!), but I'm reminded on a daily basis that my time with my mother is limited, and will soon draw to a close. I love her, and I don't want to lose her, but it's coming... I can almost sense it...

Ghosts: Who cares? Nobody even cares when I talk about them, so I'm just going to keep my curse secret. I know, it should be viewed as a blessing, but it makes people shun me, so it's a curse. I just don't care about it anymore, I'm not going to speak up about them anymore.

Job: Horrible, getting worse every day. I now get SEVERE back pain and neck pain when I'm at work, and I don't know why. I get into so much pain that I want to vommit, but I can't... Oh, and management seriously sucks, they don't care about us anymore.

Video Games: Nothing pleases me anymore in the video game department. I have yet to find ONE game recently that will last more than a week. The only thing that has lately is Halo, and that's wearing out it's welcome.

Dragonrealms: It's fun, but it's not the escape I hoped it would be... I find happiness, but too many complications rear their heads. I'm almost tempted to quit, but I've worked so hard on all my characters, I can't bear to lose them.

And so, that's a rough update on everything. I probably won't clarify anything, I'm just going to find something around here that makes me happy...
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Reply #1 Top
Good.

I mean, to the finding something that makes you happy. Everyone should do something like that. I should, too. It's hard to find happiness in this world, though. Maybe we need to look inside ourselves, because everything outside just isn't enough.

I don't know if you're looking for advice, though, so I apologize for giving it if it's not what you want.

~Anne
Reply #2 Top
hey dude,

sorry about the car, it'll get sorted out, don't lose sleep over it.

There's ghosts and spirits all over the place, the point it comes down to is energy. It's all positive and negative energy. And being a living being you constantly generate energy, so depending on the energy you give off, you feed or deplete these spirits. And being sad around a negative spirit only makes them stronger. So keep smilin!

As for the job, video games, and DR, you'll find something that makes you happy, it's out there waiting for you. Don't write anything off just because you wouldn't "typically" do it.

Life really is what you make of it, it's only a struggle when you struggle against it. (Think of "Devil's Snare" from Sorceror's Stone)