The Agony of Success
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It was about 25 degrees when I left my apartment today for the 11 mile ride to work and when I arrived my water bottle was frozen...when I biked home for my extended lunch break it was near 45 or so, and when I returned to work it was near 60....gotta love MN.
Anyway, I'm still in the midst of my weekly panic attack. Work is steady, but not necessarily in a good way. I feel like my potential is somewhat limited by the encouragement I am receiving and there seems to be a lack of that as of late....though, I am also trying to do my best to encourage my fellow staff and not criticize simply because I feel that I am a target. It's a beautiful day and I feel good that I have spent a fair amount of it outside to enjoy it, even if that means upsetting the occasional motorist or having a sore ass from these stiff bike seats.
I had a few minicigars the other day and am definitely regretting it....though at the time it seemed the perfect poison. I could stand to cut down on a few things this week....my rampant caffeine intake as well as consuming every possible piece of candy at work could definitely stand to be reduced greatly....not to mention that my spending habits have been less than acceptable recently.
Getting involved is in progress: I may join an Adopt a Trail Program run by my home city for a stretch of the bike trail, and I'm still waiting to here back from two jobs: a second summer job that would allow me to live more frivilously (relatively speaking of course) and the writing job I applied for last week....though, I'm not really thinking I'm going to get called back for that one.
I really should continue looking for other jobs too as something closer to home or where I want to live (minneapolis) would be fantastic as would something that I can sink my teeth into a little bit more. In spite of it all, I really can't complain though, the bills are getting paid and the kids still seem to dig me....so for now, maybe I'll kick my feet up and wait for something to fall in my lap.
Hopefully not right in the crotch.
Anyway, I'm still in the midst of my weekly panic attack. Work is steady, but not necessarily in a good way. I feel like my potential is somewhat limited by the encouragement I am receiving and there seems to be a lack of that as of late....though, I am also trying to do my best to encourage my fellow staff and not criticize simply because I feel that I am a target. It's a beautiful day and I feel good that I have spent a fair amount of it outside to enjoy it, even if that means upsetting the occasional motorist or having a sore ass from these stiff bike seats.
I had a few minicigars the other day and am definitely regretting it....though at the time it seemed the perfect poison. I could stand to cut down on a few things this week....my rampant caffeine intake as well as consuming every possible piece of candy at work could definitely stand to be reduced greatly....not to mention that my spending habits have been less than acceptable recently.
Getting involved is in progress: I may join an Adopt a Trail Program run by my home city for a stretch of the bike trail, and I'm still waiting to here back from two jobs: a second summer job that would allow me to live more frivilously (relatively speaking of course) and the writing job I applied for last week....though, I'm not really thinking I'm going to get called back for that one.
I really should continue looking for other jobs too as something closer to home or where I want to live (minneapolis) would be fantastic as would something that I can sink my teeth into a little bit more. In spite of it all, I really can't complain though, the bills are getting paid and the kids still seem to dig me....so for now, maybe I'll kick my feet up and wait for something to fall in my lap.
Hopefully not right in the crotch.
