Brokedownprincess,
it's surprising to see this article so soon after a previous article involving one night stands. You're probably feeling the emotional backlash that happens after non emotional intimacy. There are really only two ways to overcome this, suppress it, or cut out non-emotional intimacy. Most people tend to go for the suppress it and screw a bit more attitude, but it realyl doesn't make them happier, just delays the eventual realisation that something is missing. You really seem to be far to emotionally sensitive to make this a viable option. The other solution therefore is to stop having meaningless sex with people and focus on making yourself happy.
You state that you are looking for someone to hang out with and someone who cares, but that you are not ready for a proper relationship. From what I've read of your posts I'm not sure if you can be in a relationship without getting totally swamped. You may not be intellectualyl ready for a serious relationship but emotionally you seem to be wanting one. One option is to get the haning out and caring from a friend. While this won't give the relationship, it will give a lot fo what you seem to need. It's quite hard to keep close friends just friends though and if you mess up the friendship it hurts even more. One good approach is to become a close friend which a gay guy. You can then enjoy the friendship and have him care for you without the potentially negative side of a relationship you are not ready for.
I hope you find what you're looking for, but it almost sounds like you don't know what you're looking for. You're just seem to be emotionally unhappy and grasping at anything which might help you. The bottom line it that you need to be happy in yourself before you can be happy in a relationship. Focus on making yourself happy. That means finding interesting and stimulating things to do. Setting yourself short term goals which you can try to achieve.
paul.
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