The Warm Chaos of Family Life
almost supercedes the empty bed syndrome
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What a delightful weekend! Picked Helen up Friday, and it was just she and i. She's a little miserable at her dad's house, but it IS bearable, and there isn't much i can do to help her other that work with her on her coping skills. It was very sweet to be with her.
Then, Saturday Granny came to spend the night. The weekend was filled with mundane household chores, interspersed with children stampeding thru the house in herds. They turned the sprinkler on on the trampoline. That sure looked like FUN.
Sunday was pleasant tho rainy. We tried to go to the free concert in the park, but it was rained out. So we played on the swings, and saw the most gorgeous double rainbow. Watched it til it faded, and then home to have our picnic on the sofa watching Harry Potter. Life is good as regards the family.
I did call and reactivate my volunteer work. Hopefully, i can fill up my free time with something more productive than margaritas. It is an aching disappointment to me when i go up to my empty bed at night, and wonder just how long i will have to wait until i can recruit a volunteer for that. I know i am too picky in some ways, and absolutely too slutty in others. But, it is how i am, and i just really don't want to compromise my character to fill my ... well my nasty bits, shall we say. Plus, being a fat chick knocks a lot of men out of the running to begin with. I am what i am, but i still want what i want, and am not really interested in settling for what i can get. I want to find love with an attractive, intelligent, sweet guy who finds me attractive.
I don't mind going on the hunt for what i want. Looking for men, on the internet, in the wee small hours of the morning. But, that doesn't seem to work. Those that you find will want to insulate themselves from reality using a keyboard, camera, webcam, whatever milieu they choose. I guess it isn't so easy to hurt/get hurt that way. But you can't love/get loved that way either. It seems to me that it should be a legitimate way to meet people tho. If they will ever actually meet, and work to the next level in a relationship.
I have found L.U., and called him, and he is supposed to call, and we are supposed to get together, and that would be so perfect. I could just go completely gaga for him. But, he may be just too elusive. I want a boyfriend, not a misty memory.
... so, how would a southern belle find a gentleman caller?
She would ever so gently lean on her family and friends to introduce her to someond of character, someone whom they would vouch for. Therefore, if i am to work this the SB way, i have to widen my circle of friends, focusing especially on friends with family or other friends they could introduce me to... I don't think i am mercenary enough to prequalify my friends for having eligible connections, so i will just widen my circle of friends in general. Also, i think i will put on some heels and practice sashaying...
Then, Saturday Granny came to spend the night. The weekend was filled with mundane household chores, interspersed with children stampeding thru the house in herds. They turned the sprinkler on on the trampoline. That sure looked like FUN.
Sunday was pleasant tho rainy. We tried to go to the free concert in the park, but it was rained out. So we played on the swings, and saw the most gorgeous double rainbow. Watched it til it faded, and then home to have our picnic on the sofa watching Harry Potter. Life is good as regards the family.
I did call and reactivate my volunteer work. Hopefully, i can fill up my free time with something more productive than margaritas. It is an aching disappointment to me when i go up to my empty bed at night, and wonder just how long i will have to wait until i can recruit a volunteer for that. I know i am too picky in some ways, and absolutely too slutty in others. But, it is how i am, and i just really don't want to compromise my character to fill my ... well my nasty bits, shall we say. Plus, being a fat chick knocks a lot of men out of the running to begin with. I am what i am, but i still want what i want, and am not really interested in settling for what i can get. I want to find love with an attractive, intelligent, sweet guy who finds me attractive.
I don't mind going on the hunt for what i want. Looking for men, on the internet, in the wee small hours of the morning. But, that doesn't seem to work. Those that you find will want to insulate themselves from reality using a keyboard, camera, webcam, whatever milieu they choose. I guess it isn't so easy to hurt/get hurt that way. But you can't love/get loved that way either. It seems to me that it should be a legitimate way to meet people tho. If they will ever actually meet, and work to the next level in a relationship.
I have found L.U., and called him, and he is supposed to call, and we are supposed to get together, and that would be so perfect. I could just go completely gaga for him. But, he may be just too elusive. I want a boyfriend, not a misty memory.
... so, how would a southern belle find a gentleman caller?
She would ever so gently lean on her family and friends to introduce her to someond of character, someone whom they would vouch for. Therefore, if i am to work this the SB way, i have to widen my circle of friends, focusing especially on friends with family or other friends they could introduce me to... I don't think i am mercenary enough to prequalify my friends for having eligible connections, so i will just widen my circle of friends in general. Also, i think i will put on some heels and practice sashaying...
