what's holding me up
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the lessons of my life come through
somewhere i cannot travel to
a place i almost never go
each time i simply want to know
the lessons of my life are learned
each with my haste, quite unconcerned
so heedless of my hurried plans
they hold me back with gentle hands
the lessons of my life are cruel
if i am wood, so they are tool
like doctors' writing, truth is here
but i can't read it, so i fear
the lessons of my life are vast
when learning comes from teachings past
if static i choose to remain
then this lesson i'll see again

... oh, and there is a (very boring) story behind the sudden appearance of "vanessa". i know muggaz in real life, and he mentioned to me on several occasions (in a very kind way) that i seemed to be a very "distant" person on ju. (ok, ok, and weird too hehe). whilst i am actually rather shy in person, i hadn't realised that i may have appeared to be unfriendly. vanessa is my real name, and whilst i do prefer to write under "mignuna", as i always have, (i "answer" to "mig" and "miggy" on and off the internet), i thought about what muggy said and decided it would be a good idea if i tried to relax a little bit.