When things go wrong as they sometimes will...

Just screw it!

November 10, 2004 2:35 PM from

Hey All.

Last night I was at home alone while my parents were out at Denny's having supper and something happened.

I went in to the bathroom and started my Hilary Duff CD (very good by the way). I took a quick shower since it was already 11:00pm and when I got out I felt the urge. The urge to splurt. I felt like I had to cut my arms open. My wrists bled for half an hour. I didn't cut on a vein, but I wanted to. This is so scary. I feel so depressed I could die. I hate this feeling.

I was going to go talk to my pastor about it, but he'd tell my parents and my parents would kill me. They put my brother in the psychward for a week because he ran away.

I don't want to live (especially like this), and I don't want to die.

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Reply #1 November 10, 2004 2:55 PM from

JoeUser Forums Top

I don't know if your wanting advice or not, but here comes some all the same. Find someone you trust and talk to them. Find the number of the local lifeline and call them if your think your going to cut the vein, it's their job to talk to people. Your pastor might not be a bad choice, if he could keep it confidential. You know him better then I, you'll have to decide that one. And psychwards are no fun, I've been there myself. But it is good you don't want to die, now all you have to do is figure out how to get where you want to live. Maybe some small steps first, like flying to the moon

Reply #2 November 10, 2004 4:18 PM from

JoeUser Forums Top

If not your pastor, definitely find SOMEBODY you can talk to about it. (JU is nice, but our response time is not at all reliable.)

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