I hate you chocolate easter bunnies.

Well I started out yesterday and then had so many words spelled wrong that I gave up. So here I go again. I would first like to say that this JU is hard to use. Maybe it's just me.

Ok so yesterday I walked 4 miles and had shin splints this morning horrible. I got up anyway and walked 2 miles. It's not really a fast walk, it's a fast as my legs will carry me walk. I live on 2 acres and I walk the fence line. I say about 7 times around is a mile. With ipod going it seems so much faster than without it. My kids play around outside so it's a real family affair. Sometimes they run along behind me somethimes not, it's been pleasant so far.

I have also been doing this kettle bell work out. I got these dvds from "Kettleworx". They are so cool and man do they kick your ass.

I can't believe have let myself get this far gone. You know it's really not that hard to make myself exercise. What's hard is making myself eat healthy. I struggle constantly with it.  If it's not the easter bunnies then it's someones' birthday, there is always a reason to freaking celebrate. I am at the point now I don't care who's feelings get hurt or who wants me to eat with them....I just don't want to do it anymore. The truth of the matter is I am more of a closet eater. Now that I think about it, that's when I eat the most. Alone or waiting for my husband to get home from work.

So now here I go being REALLY honest to myself. I lost 10 pounds and I still weigh over 200 pounds.

I am 225.

I am 5'1".

That makes for a big mess.

I have to stop pretending that there isn't anything the matter with that. I can pretend myself all the way to 300 pounds and then really have something to cry about or I can so something about it now. So that's what I am going to do.