Enjoying quiet Time

So yesterday was kelseys birthday right? well I didn't even tlk to hear, i feel bad... But I will make it up to her she, knows it... I went to Bills house yesterday the (24th) for about 2 and 1/2 hours. We sat on teh couch and watched Mr. Deeds... Like we barely kissed through the whole thing *we did, you know those, sweet senual kisses* but then towards the end of the movie, we picked up pace, *strong kisses* almost urgent. We played hand games (sexy finger games, I guess you could say) He kept saying sorry, if I was bored. But I was just so happy, to be in someones arms that cared about me, I thought I couldnt move on after jay, but you know, I realized that I just couldn't fall in love with my best friend. I was very satisfied last night, he smelt so good, *like always*... I believe his mom likes me, (good sign) I'm glad that I decided to slow things down with us, you know, I just didn't want to mess things up, I dont want to hurt him. I'm thinking that it was more that I didn't want to hurt myself? Is that wrong, am I being selfish? I mean, things seem messed up when I rush into em. I haven't really even thought about the future, just living day to day, with Him. Thats not wrong in my eyes. He was holding me last night, and I wanted to ask him "Am I enough for You"? but I just couldn't bring myself to do it... I want to make him happy, and I think I'm doing a okay job, he doesnt complain. for that matter, I never do, ethier... Hit me back with questions or comments...;)

Always, Megan