A chemical reaction?

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I heard somewhere that love was just a chemical reaction within the body that made us feel blissful and happy.

It's probably right.

I had love. Everyday a kiss, a hug, a kind word, a little something that showed he cared. Everyday it would trigger this chemical reaction and make my day. I'd be high on love everyday. Full day...

I now feel like a junkie looking anxiously for his next dose or shot.

I feel like i was living a dream, floating on a pink cloud, where everything was soft and sweet. And now i've woken up and everything is steel and cold.

I know they say it's for the best, but at this very moment it feels like the worst.

I want to get through this. But i dont want to be with somebody else. I want to teach myself to be on my own. To be lonely and not crave for a presence i'm so used to have. I never want to feel this way again.

I just feel like i need to lock myself away from the world to lick my wounds and wait till they heal. I wan to be on my own and think to myself how good it is to enjoy my own company. Right now i dont. He is missing. I look around and he's not there. Everywhere, his memories are everywhere. Like mushrooms on a wet log.

So is love a chemical reaction? If so, or even if not, I need Prozac.
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Reply #1 from JoeUser Forums Top

Forget the Prozac.  And it is both a chemical and spiritual (that does not mean religious) reaction.  One begets the other.

Yes, and you are going through withdrawal.  That is always tough.  But I see you are learning from it, and that is good.  But like the endless days in school, lesson are not easy or with out pain.

Savor the good times, forget the bad times, and look toward the future.  You have a long way to go and this one will make you stronger.  Do not let it make you bitter.

Reply #2 from JoeUser Forums Top
Hehe Dr Guy, i know forget about the prozac. I think i was being too much of a drama queen there... But a couple of days back i thought about it seriously...

I want to get through this. I really do. I'm impressed with this sudden willingness i must say. i dont know where it comes from. All i know is i want to move on.

And not letting it make me bitter, well i'm afraid i already am. We wento out on Friday and it was horrible. All this guys trying to talk to me, i kept telling everyone off. Even guys i knew, i was just like 'give me some space dude'! It was a really bad night. I was totally pissed off...
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Reply #3 from JoeUser Forums Top
Just keep going. Crying and slinging snot maybe, but keep putting on foot in front of the other. Remember Duran-Duran's Ordinary World? There's one for you, too...

Came in from a rainy thursday on the avenueThought I heard you talking softly.I turned on the lights, the tv and the radioStill I can’t escape the ghost of youWhat has happened to it all? Crazy, some’d say,Where is the life that I recognize? Gone away...But I won’t cry for yesterday, there’s an ordinary world,Somehow I have to find.And as I try to make my way, to the ordinary world...I will learn to survive.Passion or coincidence once prompted you to sayPride will tear us both apartWell now pride’s gone out the window cross the rooftops, run away,Left me in the vacuum of my heart.What is happening to me? Crazy, some’d say,Where is my friend when I need you most? Gone away...(chorus)-Papers in the roadside tell of suffering and greedHere today, forgot tomorrowOoh, here besides the news of holy war and holy needOurs is just a little sorrowed talk(just blown away...)And I don’t... (chorus)Every world, is my world... (I will learn to survive)Any world, is my world ... (I will learn to survive)Any world, is my world...Every world is my world...
Reply #5 from JoeUser Forums Top
oh sweety.... your pain is palpable... Love will come again, just do not lose yourself this time.
Reply #6 from JoeUser Forums Top
Babe, you have the right idea. I wish I had some wise words for you that would make all your pain go away, but I don't. I do know that I think you're doing the right thing by letting yourself feel what you're feeling.
When we're in love it's like we're walking around in a pink haze....it makes the edges of everything all fuzzy and soft. Coming out of that haze, the harshness of reality can seem....a little much to take. But, you'll see things clearly now....
Reply #7 from JoeUser Forums Top
Thanks Shovelheat! I dont think i've heard it b4, but the words say it all. thanks, i really appreciate you being there. And i hope you face feels better?

Moderateman:
Love will come again, just do not lose yourself this time.

I dont really regret giving my all to Darren. We had a really good thing. What i regret is that he didnt do it for me. And that's what hurts more. I gave him everything and he spat on me. That's what makes it so bad.

dharma:
I guess i still have a long way to go. It's two weeks today. But it still feels like the cut was 5 minutes ago.
Reply #8 from JoeUser Forums Top
I agree with the good doctor
Forget the Prozac. And it is both a chemical and spiritual (that does not mean religious) reaction. One begets the other.
Yes, and you are going through withdrawal. That is always tough. But I see you are learning from it, and that is good. But like the endless days in school, lesson are not easy or with out pain.
Savor the good times, forget the bad times, and look toward the future. You have a long way to go and this one will make you stronger. Do not let it make you bitter.


i dont know where it comes from. All i know is i want to move on.

You will eventually, you have the will to and that's the key.