Someone to talk to. Part One

An imaginary conversation with someone who has time & patience to talk to me about anything I want to talk about

from JoeUser Forums
Imaginary friend: What's wrong?
Me: Can you narrow that question down please.
OK, what's on your mind?
I need someone to talk to.
I can talk.
Do you have time?
Sure.
I mean, do you care what I have to say, and do you have an unlimited amount of time to talk to me? Do you have time to greet the sunrise with me, talk with me while we walk through the park, have lunch, watch the sun go down, and admire the stars, talking and enjoying each other's company all the while?
Yes, I would definitely enjoy that.
Really?
Really.
Even with me? I stutter when I talk, I make funny faces sometimes and I can be really annoying. But I would really love to talk with someone and enjoy the day with another person who really cares about me.
I enjoy your company.
You do?
Yes.
[We walk in the sunshine, and I now have a friend who likes to talk with me....about things that really matter.]
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Reply #1 from JoeUser Forums Top
Little Whip: This friend is imaginary because I've found that my everyday thoughts are often in the form of a dialogue, like Socrates and Plato wrote in dialogue form. While I wouldn't dare believe I'm anything as brilliant as those two classic thinkers, I still have thoughts. And I need to write them down. It's how I operate.

Comments are always welcome. Especially from FAMILY!!!! ECHO!! IS ANYONE OUT THERE, YOU SILENT VOYEURS?! SPEAK UP, OR I WILL CUSTOMIZE MY AUDIENCE TO INCLUDE ONLY PEOPLE WHO HAVE LEFT COMMENTS.

It's a blog, after all. I love dialogue and I don't get enough of it in my real life...because I am a recluse about 70% of the time. The other 30% of the time I rush to catch up on the social opportunities I've missed out on...which is odd to many people, so I'm cast out of social groups because I can't "keep up." Little Whip, your question may have been rhetorical, so you may not care what my answers are, but I'll answer each of your questions one at a time. If even solely for my own benefit.

Church. Yes. It's three hours on Sundays. Very busy, (The first hour is a quiet, reverent meeting, then my husband & I teach children for the next two hours.) There is no time at church for social interaction. By the time it's over, it's lunchtime. We're hungry, so we eat. Then I'm bored. Which is right now actually. So this is one moment of my week when I can go out and be with people. I guess I just assume that everyone wants their Sundays to be quiet family time, so I don't call anyone from church on Sundays. Or Mondays because that's family day too.

Group activities. No. I'll look into some.

Sports. I love dancing, but I can't find the dance studio downtown. I love aerobics classes. I need to shuffle my schedule so that I can make it there.

Reading. Love it. It's not a social activity though, and I certainly don't want to spend the gorgeous springtime & summer with my nose in a book.

Crafts. Eeeeh. Fun, but time consuming and pointless.

Hiking. YES! I need to find some people around here who like that too. My two closest friends aren't big on physical activity, so I'll need to find some other people.

Classes. Yes. Now that my son is out of the stage where I need to carry him all the time and be with him all of the time, I've just started taking classes this semester. Actually it's just one class right now (and it's online, so that's not a social solution), cause it's all we could afford. Next term my financial aid will kick in and I can take a full load. But sitting in a classroom gives me social anxiety and excruciating boredom and discomfort sitting in a hard chair. So I look forward to going back to the states where I can enroll in outdoor classes. I thrive socially in outdoor situations.

As for my fellow bloggers, and my silent VOYEUR audience (shame on you all) please, reach out. Get to know me. Talk to me. Don't vent your worries about me onto other people. Talk to ME. I'm a real human being, just like you. Can you believe it? I breathe the same air as you, and we both look at the same moon in the sky. Sometimes we're even looking at the same moon at the same time. We're connected. We all have hopes, insecurities, joy, frustration, really good days, and really bad days. The only difference between us is that I dare to share my thoughts, which may even be similar to your own.
Reply #2 from JoeUser Forums Top
I like this as a literary device actually...
Star Control: Origins
Reply #3 from JoeUser Forums Top
Thanks little whip & greywar. You're awesome.

Yes, lw, my church has tons of activities...I just need to jump in. Usually they're quiet, domestic-type things. Yaaaaaaaawwwwn. But maybe I'll get brave and prepare to teach an aerobics class at the next "Enrichment night." There are a lot of healthy gals in the ward, so I think an aerobics class would be well-attended. Thanks for helping me brainstorm.