Fear

Poem...big surprise, huh? There is no particular person in mind in this poem...

from JoeUser Forums
I have fears too,
I fear about what I can not do.
How I wish I had courage,
Or confidence in myself.

I’ve watched you from a distance,
Talked to you when I found the words.
Most of the time I choke,
You disrupt my thoughts.

I find it hard to say what I feel,
And I suppose I fear what may happen.
Confessing something is hard,
So hard for fear of rejection.

I fear,
I fear what the consequences will be.
I’m alone now,
But what if I am after I speak?

After I lay my feelings on the table,
Will you pick them up?
Or will you brush them on the floor?
Will you break my heart?
I’m not sure.

I sit here alone,
Uneasy and afraid.
If only I could,
If only I could say what my heart screams.

My words get scrambled,
I know not how to say what I feel.
I pray that I could have the strength,
The courage to go through.
If only I had the confidence,
To say, “I love you.”

Then what would become of me?
What would you say?
Would you accept me?
Or reject me and be on your way?

Every day and every night,
I think of what could be.
The love I could share with you,
Or finding out you don’t love me.

That’s what I fear,
Most of all in this world.
No one else can scare me,
Save but one beautiful girl.

~Zoo
poetry
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Reply #1 from JoeUser Forums Top
I think for the most part all of us are afraid of rejection. We're afraid to be pushed away from the ones we love. We're afraid that what we say might turn them away and we won't know how to react to their reactions.

~carebear~
Reply #2 from JoeUser Forums Top
them away and we won't know how to react to their reactions.


Yes, and it could be the most devastating thing in the world. That's what you're afraid of Zoo and it's only normal for you to feel the way you do.


If however you feel brave enough to toss all fears to the wind and just go for it, regardless of the outcome, regardless of how you will feel afterwards....saying it, speaking your heart will make you feel better. I think the deepest regret would be if you never say anything and lose that one chance to lay your cards on the table; then one day the song you sing will be...if only or I should have, could have....


It's a beautiful poem by the way.
Ashes of the Singularity II
Reply #3 from JoeUser Forums Top
Shaun....no matter what you do....you could possibly be devastated. Sometimes it's a good thing to let other people know that you like them and sometimes it's not. But like Foreverserenity said.....it could be to your advantage if you tell this person how you feel about them. I guess you'll never know until you try something. Or you could just sit back your whole life and not do a thing and wonder what might have happened if you would've said something to this person. But then I understang that you're afraid that who ever this person is won't accept you for you. And that you will be rejected. I think at some point in our lives we all feel this way. So you're not alone.

But at the same time, you should maybe try to listen to me and Sarah. We didn't just lecture you on the way home from stomp last tuesday for the heck of it. There was tons of meaning behind what we said. I just don't know if you caught on to it or not. You shouldn't go around saying that no one likes you and being so negative towards yourself. There's someone out there for you Shaun. You just haven't found them yet. Or maybe you have you just don't know it. Hang in there!

~carebear~